New life....

Hey,now is d year of 2010...a new year n a new me...haha....

Well,today is 14 of Jan,a few more days will b my 17 birthday,i feel bad nowadays n i dun noe y...
I feel so sorry 2 all my frenz cos i tell them to cancel d plan of my birthday party tat they wanted to make 4 me...i oso dun noe y i dun wan to celebrate my own birthday tis year.I just feel like i dun wan to celebrate tis meaningless birthday...i oso can't find any reason y do i say tat...

I really wan to celebrate my birthday on d day when my birthday date is....i just wan a simple birthday where i can celebrate it with my family n my frenz,but i guess tis year i feel so meaningless to do tat coz mayb is b'coz of my grandpa had pass away,i feel empty,like insecure in my life coz every year i celebrate my birthday with my family members altough just only with a birthday cake,i will feel vry happy...but tis time is different....

I think mayb i wll b happy if someone can remember my birthday date n just wish me happy birthday...sure of coz got think b4 if there is a surprise during my birthday time,it will b more wonderful....but i just hoping only if there is really got a surprise 4 me.....